to my friends :
i seriously feel left out some times ,
i know im not the one everyone fancy.
i always get emo ,
but
who will be there to understand me when im down ?
sometimes i keep things to myself ,
i kept so long & tight that i break down every night.
sleepless nights & soaked pillows.
i dont want these ,
i want to be happy even if im alone at home.
i cant.
once the lights are off , i start to cry .
i dont want to cry every night ,
i get sick of crying.
but i cant help it.
i want my friends to be with me all the time.
once im alone i'll start thinking & sometimes i will sliently cry.
no one will know how i feel deep inside .
my temper hasnt been good ,
or i can say never good before.
i want to change , cause i dont want to be hate by anyone.
i seriously know alot ppl dont like my temper.
anyone can help me change?
i dont want to shout at ppl , i dont want to give attidute.
i dont want to slam things to vent anger ,
i dont want to cry loudly into my pillow.
IM VERY 
i want to be like every other girl , have freedom .
i know i look like i have freedom & i look like a blessed girl.
but im NOT , get this right.
If you have an invinsible coat ,
welcome to stay at my hse one night ,
you will know whats behind that closed door.
thats impossible i know , i fucking know.
i want to be with my friends forever.
only them can make me forget everything ,
im sorry for all the lanjiao bin i give sometimes ,
im sorry for my attidute ,
im sorry for everything i've done.
give me time to get over everything ,
i want to be a girl who everyone likes.
can i ?
i hate life.
sorry everyone ,
sincerly i apologize.
forgive me.
i'll change.
